Ch-Ch-CHANGES

With move in day quickly approaching I am busier than ever! I've yet to pack...anything!! I have SO much to get to Waco and not nearly enough room. It'll all get there...one way or another! I'm so excited to move in and get settled back into my "Waco life". Moving back to Waco is very exciting, but for me it is also sad. I'm going to miss my friends and family here in Richmond. I love Baylor and all of my friends up there, but Richmond will always be my home. For that reason, leaving is very bittersweet for me.

There is one possible new addition to my "Waco life" I'm pretty excited about...PILATES!! I have an appointment on Wednesday (my move in day) with a lady who owns a Pilates studio in Waco. Ideally, I would like to take Pilates classes with her one or two times a week. I've been on a "health kick" lately and I must say I'm starting to love working out! I feel like adding Pilates classes is the perfect ingredient in my new, healthy lifestyle. Not only is Pilates a great workout, but, like Yoga, it can also be used a meditation time. (Something I definitely could use in the midst of my busy life!) All of this is why I am very, very excited about meeting with Rae on Wednesday. :]

Change seems to be a theme in my life. I think this is true for most college students. New town, new friends, new living quarters, new everything! Still, I find myself trying to cling on to the "old". Namely, old friendships. This isn't unusual, but recently clinging to old friendships has caused me a lot of hurt and frustration. Ever since I was in jr. high I've had 2 best friends. After high school, we vowed to stay friends no matter what. They went in one direction for school and I went in another. Things have been rocky, but we've remained friends. Only recently, have I had issues with these friendships. Tonight was sort of a breaking point for me. I'm exhausted from trying to hold friendships together. I feel like I am the only one trying. They hang out with each other more than either of them hang out with me. I never hear from either one unless I initiate contact through a text or call. I'm terrified that I'll leave Wednesday and never hear from them again. I'm so frustrated by always having to pursue them, but I'm afraid if I stop our friendship will fade away. We were supposed to be best friends forever (as cheesy as that sounds). Now we're closer to acquaintances. The question is, do I continue to put myself out there, or do I walk away? What do I do?? I'm so upset. I know change is difficult, but I never expected it to be this hard.